My Revelation!

Okay so I was sitting in class yesterday totally immersed in this book that I was reading, and I had a total revelation. I just felt this pull on an idea that came to my mind of what I want to do for the rest of my life. I had decided that I felt led to go to college and apply for one of those 3 week missions programs to a Spanish speaking country and work with children. I also want to study abroad and major in Spanish. I love the thought of going to Panama or Peru for a semester experiencing the people and the culture. I love the idea of missions, and as the Cuba trip approaches, I really want to be focused on the idea of doing it for a lifetime. I want to really experience it more than I did on the last trip. I just really felt the pull of this being the thing I want to do with my life! So yeah, anyways, I've developed this relationship with the librarians today because every time I came into the library I set off the alarm...yeah...everytime. It turned out to be a tag in my sweater from Old Navy, but then after I cut it out, I walked out to leave and it went off again...so I checked my pants, and there was one on my pocket. The one thing I always get nervous about in stores is the alarm going off and me getting arrested...scary!!! So I guessed I conquered my fear today!!

Amazed...

Sometimes I am amazed and appalled at how many people take God's word for granted...I found this passage in Leviticus 19 that says,
"Do not steal."
"Do not lie."
"Do not deceive on another."
"Do not swear falsely by my name and so profane the name of your God. I am the Lord."
"Don't defraud your neighbor or rob him."
"...but fear your God. I am the Lord."
"Do not hate your brother in your heart. Rebuke your neighbor frankly so you will not share in his guilt."
"...Love your neighbor as yourself. I am the Lord."

Twice by Christina Georgina Rossetti

I took my heart in my hand (O my love, O my love),

I said: Let me fall or stand,

Let me live or die,

But this once hear me speak (O my love, O my love)-

Yet a woman's words are weak;

You should speak, not I.
You took my heart in your hand

With a friendly smile,

With a critical eye you scann'd,

Then set it down,

And said, 'It is still unripe,

Better wait awhile;

Wait while the skylarks pipe,

Till the corn grows brown.'

As you set it down it broke—

Broke, but I did not wince;

I smiled at the speech you spoke,

At your judgement I heard:But I have not often smiled

Since then, nor question'd since,

Nor cared for cornflowers wild,

Nor sung with the singing bird.
I take my heart in my hand,

O my God, O my God,

My broken heart in my hand:

Thou hast seen, judge Thou.

My hope was written on sand,

O my God, O my God:

Now let thy judgement stand—

Yea, judge me now.
This contemn'd of a man,

This marr'd one heedless day,

This heart take thou to scan

Both within and without:

Refine with fire its gold,

Purge Thou its dross away—

Yea, hold it in Thy hold,

Whence none can pluck it out.
I take my heart in my hand—

I shall not die, but live—

Before Thy face I stand;

I, for Thou callest such:

All that I have I bring,

All that I am I give,

Smile Thou and I shall sing,

But shall not question much.